When I tell you God has taken me from comfortable to uncomfortable-It is an understatement!
At 5am, HE woke me up to start my day. I said my prayers, began baking to fill orders, but soon realized I needed to make a store run.
In doing that, I stumbled upon a mess(someone had knocked over a paper towel display) and as I walked by, HE whispered, clean it up. Baffled, I sort of looked at it(the mess) and thought, um, why would I do that? HE immediately spoke and said, I know you didn't make the mess, but I want you to understand the reason behind it. There's a lot of mess going on in this world and if everyone avoided it, how would the issues become resolved? Clean the mess up, you don't need anyone to see you do it, but it will be seen. I cleaned that display up so fast.
So often, when we make a mess, we want someone to see or at least help us clean-there's also times when we selfishly say, well-I didn't make that mess, why am I stuck with it? It doesn't matter who did it, what matters is the resolve! Lend the helping hand to clean "IT" up!
Fast forward. I knew I had a lot to do yesterday. I had orders to fill, a book signing/speaking engagement and my sons scrimmage. I had contemplated not going to my event, or at bare minimum going late and/or leaving early. BUT God! I tried to bake everything to at least get that over, but God had other plans. I was so off of my baking game. Before I cook/bake, I pray. ALL the time! I did my normal routine and commenced with baking, but it was an epic fail. My focus was time and feeling that I had none, that I was beginning to talk myself OUT of doing what HE lead me to do.
Finally, after I baked my final dozen of "epic fails" I decided to get ready for the event and come back to baking once the event was over. BEST decision ever!
I arrived at the Church, which I thought I was late, on time! Introduced myself to such a warm and welcoming bunch and began setting up my table. Realizing that I didn't have what I needed, I made a store run. Every single detail was ordained by God! Even the store run was apart of HIS plan.
When I returned, I met a woman. She was so frustrated and just overwhelmed. God had me bless her with a book, she kept mentioning that her morning was tossed upside down and she had left her wallet behind. Reassuring her that it was OK and that I wanted to give her the book, she started to become teary eyed. It was in that moment that God began to reveal the "why" of the day.
HE said, DeVita-this morning was to prepare you for the day. I needed you to focus on me, which is why I delayed everything so that you would be in position for this very moment. I needed you to be present for this young woman, that feels no on understands. I needed her to meet someone who has been where she is and has overcome it. I needed you to give her hope, by sharing your story. Do not concern yourself with those that will understand your reason why for writing the book, I will appoint those to you, that will not only understand, but will be changed by it.
The young lady came back to me, with a five dollar bill. She said that was all she had to pay for the book. I hugged her and said, "You have to understand that everything you've asked God for, HE has heard your cries. HE knows what you need and will supply them all, starting with you feeling as if you're there for others and yet no one is there for you. Today, HE blessed you, but because it wasn't in the way you thought it would be, you couldn't accept it. The book, the book was to be a blessing by God for you. Her eyes lit up and she started to cry. I shared with her that I'd been there, I know how she feels and I wanted her to know that she wasn't alone.
After the event, I went back home to bake the rest of the desserts and just as HE told me, the delay was to focus on HIM and to be prepared for the encounter. I completed the order without any problems. God is AMAZING and never ceases to amaze me!
The mess that's made, has to be cleaned, not so much by the person that made it, but by someone taking to the to acknowledge it.
We've all been there, but don't stay there!!! You cannot get mad at someone for lying to you; when you're constantly lying to yourself. What TRUTH will you surrender to, today???? I'll make it personal. For a while now, God has been preparing me for my resignation. I've been afraid, thinking how will we get by, my family and I have become accustomed to the lifestyle of two nice sized incomes. What will we lose/miss out on....Gods reply....NOTHING. What I have for you, there will not be enough room to hold/contain. Stop telling yourself you can't when #Iam telling you, you can and will....Oh the lies we believe, No more! Surrender to your truth!!! #Godfirst #GodSaidIT #Iknowitstrue #Believer #NewAdventureSAMEJourney #ThePromisedDoor #IsOpen
In my quiet time, I've been able to just bask in Gods presence. Spend that one on one with HIM, tuning everything and everyone OUT.
This past week, has been filled with pain, tears, new revelations, mercy, grace, rebirth and true forgiveness.
I watched how God reminded me that HE would turn back the hands of time, so that I wouldn't miss out on one single thing. HE breathed a new life into my relationship with my brother, my sister, my marriage, my family as a whole. HE opened up my eyes to truly see the vision/purpose HE has always intended for me to see, when I fully surrendered to HIM and the WILL HE has for my family and I.
Of late, I've been surrounded by folks who still carry/harbor feelings from their ex/soon to be ex spouse(failing to move on, even though they have) parents(some deceased) Children, friends/ex friends, etc. and each time we talk, it all ends with "have you forgiven yourself, him/her"? The responses are always" I feel like I have" but in all honesty, they haven't.
The word forgiveness is often misconstrued with forgetting. We forgive for our freedom, we forget for our sanity. Remembering what someone has done to us, will keep you prisoner to their transgressions, IF you're remembering simply to keep feeling guilt or holding the other party hostage to their guilt. We begin to move in fear and not in freedom. We hold onto reputations which will always beseech us in the long run. Our goal in life is to forgive and forget-our slate to be wiped clean. It's funny how we ask this of God for ourselves yet not toward one another. We tend to rather hold on to a portion of hurt rather than letting go of it all to make room for better. We become scared to trust and love again out of failing to forget things that were once before....True forgiveness isn't about "remembering what the person was once capable of" it's about understanding that The Bible says that when God forgives us, He “remembers our sins no more" (Jeremiah 31:34). When our former sins come to mind, we can choose to dwell upon them (with the resulting guilty feelings), or we can choose to fill our minds with thoughts of the awesome God who forgave us and thank and praise Him for it (Philippians 4:8). Remembering our sins is only beneficial when it reminds us of the extent of God’s forgiveness and makes it easier for us to forgive others (Matthew 18:21-35).
We want so badly to be in that front row seat to see the "fall" of those who have wronged us, when it's not our place too. What joy can really come from that??
Today, I ask you to really search your heart and forgive those who have trespassed against you and forgive yourself for allowing it to dwell within for so long. Life is SO short, let's not spend time and energy on being hurt, offended and unforgiven. Forgive on that you too can be forgiven. The worst kind of captivity is being held prisoner for someone else's offense.
#Godfirst #Believer #newadventureSAMEjourney
When you hear those words you immediately thinking about all of the things you can’t do, as opposed to what you can do. You begin to change how you see things, how you hear things, you begin to react to words, instead of what you know to be true.
Since April, I’ve been trying to maintain a sense of normalcy-trying to keep up with my daily routine (my family], work and SDTE). In May, my doctor uttered those dreadful words to me after a series of doctors’ visits. Well, he didn’t say it, but he wrote it on my discharge papers (which I completely overlooked) OR did I? I didn’t want to hear any of that foolishness, I wanted him to give me a clean bill of health and tell me that I could resume all normal activities, not restrict me. For many reasons, I just couldn’t get it in my head. I refused to believe any of it. I guess you could say, my will to keep going was just that strong right?
For several weeks, I was unable to sit, stand or walk (My event in April, if you only knew the amount of pain I was actually in…but I simply refused to “cancel” what I had already set out to do, against doctor’s orders and my husbands, I did what Devita wanted to do). Normal tasks, became unbearable. To walk to the bathroom, which is not even a few steps away from our bedroom, was daunting. I would grimace in pain, just to turn over in bed. The only way I could turn over, was if I held onto my husband to do so. To stand/sit was even worse. I have a high tolerance for pain, so the mere fact that I felt any of it, was a quick sign of the amount of pain/suffering I endured.
I digress, this story isn’t intended to tell you the downfall, but rather the lesson in all of it.
At the onset of all this, I wasn’t focused on the pain too much-rather than the “why”. I was anticipating a promotion at work, SDTE was moving in all kinds of awesome directions (Still is), marriage was and IS good, kids are kids, but they’re good kids. So why now? Imagine the look on my face when God chuckled and said Devita, why not now? Over the next few weeks, God would REVEAL all to me, reminding me that in the past, when HE needed to sit me down-I would do it for a few days, but would go right back to doing what I thought I wanted to do, instead of what I needed to do. Which was try to work my 8+hours as if nothing were wrong. And guess what, they treated me as if nothing were wrong. Why? Its what I taught them to do.
In November of last year, God told me that 2016 would be the year of sustained Greatness. It would be the year of increase on many levels. He also told me that this would be my last year working for anyone other than HIM. Even gave me a time frame-but not the PLAN. Why? I needed to trust the process!
Just like clock-work, it all began to come to a head. The promotion that was promised, was taken away OR was it? It was never really mine to begin with. God didn’t promise me that, so why did I take literally, what anyone else told me? I’ll tell you, because I found security in the very thing, that made me insecure. Re-read if you don’t understand.’
I struggled with conviction, because I KNEW I was wrong for waiting for something that was never mine to begin with.
I began letting go of what I couldn’t control and began focusing on what I could. Step by Step, God would tell me what I needed to do. I was to focus on Devita-The very break that I kept asking for, HE brought to fruition (again, HE never revealed HIS plan) I had to trust the process!
I remember talking to my sister and telling her the news of what my doctor said, her response (Well, Good-this is what it will take for you to focus on what you are supposed to focus on. So I’m not mad that you can’t go to work. My other sister who was with me the day of my diagnosis, when she pointed out what the note said, immediately began to Praise God. Now clearly, I thought these two had lost their minds. For me, as mentioned I was not entertaining any of that foolishness of being Totally Incapacitated.
My husband (my BEST) who said-my concern isn’t about your job and what they will do-it’s all about you and your health. I’m not married to them and you’re not either.
I fought this thing HARD-I would pray and meditate daily (not during times of suffering this is done daily) trying to understand what I needed to do, as if HE didn’t tell me already. When I began to receive and accept what HE needed me to understand, it all made sense.
Physically, Yes-I was completely incapacitated. But spiritually, mentally/emotionally, I was as strong as ever. My MIND, WILL and DESIRE intact. HE began working on me in those areas-creating new game plans for all business ventures that have been presented during this time-that will actually gain me more exposure for ALL OF my brands. HIS will for me and not my own. My dreams weren’t as big as HIS-How he saw me isn’t how I saw myself or I did, but was flooded with the things that were in the way. Suddenly, the diagnosis didn’t seem so foolish. It seemed to be ordained. The irony, the pain that I endured felt as if I were in labor EVERYDAY without relief. I was laboring, ready to receive my deliverance. It needed to happen so that this NEW thing HE was doing, could take place. Anything that we go through, will only grow us and make way for the new things. The old has to cease/die before the new can exist. Total forgiveness not just for others, but for myself. Forgiveness for my fighting against, instead of going with the process.
It's amazing how so many doors have been opened now, then before. I don’t want for anything. ALL of my needs have been provided for my family and I, under grace and in a perfect way. I thank God for my praying husband, mother, sisters, and brothers.
My ministry has been resurrected-which has completely filled me up with total gladness. My desire to be this transparent, has been restored. This storm. Well, it has definitely taught me to open up when the world wants you to shut up. It has/is continuing to bless me greatly and I pray it has the same effect on you too.
Your victory doesn’t begin when you’ve come out of the storm, it begins when you understand your storm. I celebrate daily, knowing that it’s all necessary. Sure, I have had my days when I was in a funk, but it’s a day. It’s not supposed to last for days, weeks, months even years. Healing can only take place when you accept the time and space that you’re in. Trust the Process!
The horse is made ready for the day of battle, but victory rests with the Lord. Proverbs 21:31
Thanks be to God, who gives us victory through our Lord Jesus Christ -1Corinthians 15:57
The purpose and intent (of a true leader) shall be to elevate mankind’s faith, and to fill the world with justice!
After having the most delightful conversation today, I found myself thinking about this very thing. The purpose and intent of a true leader. A true leader, should provide the necessary tools for their following, to make the best possible decision not only for themselves-but for all parties involved. Has a passion to help inspire others, has the mind, will and desire(drive) to get things done(in an orderly fashion) is dedicated to growing/mentoring others. They should seek to lift and not tear down. They should show you the right way, instead of ridiculing you for doing the task incorrectly. We have all been faced with difficult people in leadership roles. Personally, I had the unfortunate/fortune of dealing with several. What is an unfortunate/fortunate? Well, at the time that I endured that rough patch, I felt like I had the worst luck ever when it came to people whom I worked for. The very first was back in 2005, the owners of my very first real estate gig were horrible(so I thought)-My very first day, I was yelled at for not knowing how to answer the phone(she didn’t tell me what I needed to say) when asked, she told me to wait for my new co-worker to train me. LOL As time went on, I grasped the industry pretty quickly and soon, was hired on permanently and surpassed the original staff. The owners actually liked me a great deal, though they never told me, personally-they began to show it later.
Fast forward, in 2009, it was time to move on. On April 19th, I started my second real estate position (makes less money than before)with another company. The office setting was relaxed (perhaps too relaxed) but could be stressful. I worked long hours, would receive bonuses, but I wasn’t fulfilled. The leadership, well, let’s just say-believed that money would bring about happiness. WRONG. The 3rd and present position-which I feel has been the hardest, has taught me a test of faith, strength and true endurance. When I first came on board, I was paired with who I though was Satan himself. This lady was so scattered brained, psychotic and just a true demon(except she had no idea how the enemy was using her) she did and said things to people that were just horrible. Always believed that someone was jealous of her, little did she know-folks actually felt sorry for her. Her presence alone, proved her to be one of the loneliest/ misguided people I have ever encountered. She was so unhappy and as a result made everyone else unhappy(at least she tried too)She lead as she lived-which was disastrous. She lived as if she was owed/entitled to things and it would prove to be very hard to move ahead with a leader who didn’t know how to lead.
The unfortunate/fortunate is that I HAD to endure those storms. It was a part of my destiny to meet those people to help to shape who I am today. I realized that “ If the head isn’t right, the body will not be right” As it relates to you and/or me. If the head(leader)isn’t performing and/or conducting themselves in a manner that we can learn from, the body(workers, students, government, police) will not respond in the manner of which we are supposed to respond in. There’s a scripture that reads “My brethren, be not many masters, knowing that we shall receive the greater condemnation. We are all not called to be teachers/leaders. There’s a lot of people who have not been called to teach and/or lead. When we forget the real reason or in most cases begin to operate as if we are in control we really lose it. How? We lose control by not going to our Heavenly father for counsel. We lose control by thinking that we should or can allow our emotions to lead us. The greatest leader, needs encouraging, guidance and a vision of purpose. The greatest leader has to be teachable. One cannot assume the responsibility and believe they know it all. Times are ever changing and we all stand in the need of fine tuning.
My question for you is this: If you are a leader, where do you seek your directive from? Who is your source of help? If you are currently in the following role, where does your head seek his/her leadership from? How many of you are following simply because you’ve been told that you belong in the back when you should really be at the front, leading? And how many are leading when you should be in the back?
There is a time and place for everything, be careful about moving simply because you want to be seen…. Focus more on “while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.
#Godfirst #Believer #NewAdventureSAMEjourney #Making2016Epic
Being in commercial real estate has taught me a lot. In my quiet time with my Heavenly Father, HE told me one day why HE placed me in this field. HE said, Devita, in your current bldg., what have you noticed. I said it’s under construction. He said what else, what are they doing? I said, they are removing things and bringing in new things. HE said, what is the one thing they aren’t touching? I said the foundation? HE replied, yes. Devita. If you notice-you never put new things together with old things. You have to remove the old first, and then put new things in. If not, you’ll end up with a mess. If you look up Foundation, it means an underlying basis or principle for something. Our foundation is our root. No matter what you do, you cannot change anything unless you get to the root of the problem. The bldg. that I am currently is, in an historic feature here in DC, my company bought it because it is a wonderful sturdy bldg., yes, it requires work but the FOUNDATION is stable. See, God has given us our foundation (our bodies) and every so often during the seasons, HE will instruct us on what to do, to build on our foundation. HE will use different life events to cultivate us, shape us, teach us, to be who HE desires for us to be. It requires purging/releasing, it’s ALL necessary in order fulfilling the purpose that we ALL have. When we purge/release its ridding ourselves of the things that are no longer necessary on this journey-It could be people, habits, mindset etc. Once we are fully purged, God will begin to pour new wine (see scripture above) into new bottles so that the lessons will be preserved. God has a plan for me, and HE definitely has one for YOU! This season, is to release/purge the old things that are hurting, hindering and exhausting you. HE is ready to give you more. Are you ready?
Heavenly Father, I am grateful for this day. I thank you for my foundation; help me Father-to build on it. Help me, to release/purge what is not longer necessary on this journey, so that I may put new wine into new bottles. I am ready Father; I can’t do this with you. Empty me of ME and fill me up with YOU. Bind up anything that isn’t of you, cast it out into the sea-never to be seen or heard from again. Help me to be truthful with myself in what I need to change, align me with more processed me and woman who will help me grow on this journey. In Jesus Name. Amen.
I posted this pic a while back and decided to “repost” I sent out a mass text to my family and some friends regarding my non-profit endeavor. I shared in great detail, how important this was\is to me and how it required A LOT of my time and effort to create develop this non-profit. I knew that once I started, I couldn’t stop. Certain areas of my life (school, some friends/family had to take a back seat) suffered lack while I’ve been building my brand. I had to learn that what I’m doing has taken precedence over everything else. If I want to make a difference, within my community with young people/parents, help parents raise awareness to DIPG all while incorporating the gift of cooking to charity organizations, I knew that sacrifices would need to be made. What has kept me going is this scripture Job 42:10-After Job had prayed for his friends, the Lord restored his fortunes and gave him twice as much as he needed before” It’s because of this scripture, that has made me realize that regardless of what I think I’ve lost, God will restore it all.
I expressed my plan to family and friends and I was given strong discernment to see who would be sitting in my front row genuinely and who was sitting in my front row that purchased nose bleed seats. Needless to say, I‘ve seen A LOT. Am I upset? NO! Am I going to stop or send our reminders? NO! See, from experience-I’ve received support from people whom I’ve known for such a short period of time, more than family and friends that I’ve known for ages- Who has encouraged, pushed, motivated, counseled and not only reviewed my paper work, but gave me advice based on their experience.
The purpose of this post isn’t to bash or bad mouth anyone, it is to show the next person who may be getting ready to step out on faith and make moves-that no matter what, if what your doing is for the Glory of God, trust me-HE will send you your supporters-it may not be in the form of a familiar face, but it will be support no less! #believer #newadventureSAMEjourney
I’m careful that when I speak-I use words that will speak life, that will glorify God and teach HIS word to all that will listen. I pray daily that God will use me -whether it’s to encourage, strengthen build or to just be used as HIS vessel. With that said, I try to be as transparent as I possibly can. There’s no way for me to make this stuff up, It’s truly a blessing for me to be able to be used in that capacity. Today, like many days-I woke up with a cheerful heart, one filled with gratitude and thanksgiving. Since, making the decision to give my life to the God, I’ve been challenged in every way imaginable. I’ve been lied on, falsely accused, betrayed, cursed out, mocked the list goes on. Initially, it would bother me, however; it was/is necessary. God blessed me with some pretty amazing people, my husband being the most important one. When I get off course, or I tend to take things personally, he without skipping a beat-reminds me that this isn’t about me per-say, but for the will that God has for my life. He(husband) reminds me daily, that I am to do my part. And that whatever man believes about me 1) isn’t true and 2)who cares(Bless him, he’s so blunt) He reminded me on Friday, that ppl are trying to figure out what will make me tick at this point in my life(he knows that I was once a hell raiser). He said, you keep thinking that it doesn’t bother folks when they do things to purposely try to make you mad, and how you show no reaction/emotion to any of it. He told me that he was extremely proud of the woman that I’ve become in Christ. Yesterday, in Church as we listened to our pastor- he said that it doesn’t matter that the snake(how befitting since I have always been scared of snakes) bit you, what matters is that the poisonous venom wasn’t allowed to penetrate you. My husband grabbed me in Church and said-See, here’s your confirmation. When I tell you last week, was the absolute MOST.. JESUS. Those closest to me, knew all about it-some didn’t find out until after it was over. Each time, I thought if I just “go off” maybe folks would leave me alone... God quickly reminded me that your snapping/going off isn’t necessary. HE told me that HE needed me to go through, for HIM. HE told me the end is now, your beginning can’t start without it. HE reminded me of the following scriptures. Instead of your shame you will receive a double portion, and instead of disgrace you will rejoice in your inheritance. And so you will inherit a double portion in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours. Isaiah 61:7 Return to your fortress, you prisoners of hope; even now I announce that I will restore twice as much to you. Zechariah 9:12 After Job had prayed for his friends, the LORD restored his fortunes and gave him twice as much as he had before. Job 42:10. HE reminds me daily that I must confess and release ALL to HIM. Everything that I endure is designed to make me a truly powerful woman in HIM. It is purposed for my calling/the vision that HE has for my life. Before I can be elevated to the next adventure within this journey, I have to learn each lesson, even if it’s one from my past. As I go through, I’ve decided to grow in the process. Understanding and accepting it all, including my part in it. I believe that good measure is being pressed down, shaken together and ready to be poured into me as I move forward without looking back. This is why I am a #BELIEVER. I choose to think outside of the box and understand that EVERYTHING happens for a reason with the intent to fulfill a purpose. #FHL #newadventureSAMEjourney #iHss #YPMM #takefromthis #asyouseefit #ifIcanreacheone #itsallworthit #growth #Newwine #processedpeople #mymentor #mysistersam #myhusband
For a while now, I've been sitting back observing behavior patterns, and while observing I saw how ppl take kindness as a weakness and silence as distance. When in reality, I've been finding little pieces that allowed me to put the big puzzle together. I've observed that there are still people in my life that need to removed due to being a wolf in Sheep's clothing. You've been disguising yourself as friend/family when your actions have been telling me everything I need to know, which is different from what you've been showing me.
My mentor shared with me something that I've been applying to my life. Every situation requires/deserves a separate response from your last. You cannot handle everything the same way. At the end of each lesson, you should be able to grow in your area of weakness. Not to mention experience being your greatest teacher.
I've noticed how folks will take strained relationships and use them as an advantage. I've noticed how longevity has been measured at a higher regard over loyalty and honesty. I've noticed how your overall perspective is measured by what others think. I notice how you believe you have the gift of gab, when its really you believing that persuasion is better than being humble/honest.
I notice how you keep seeing the same situation in your life-often reversing the roles of who is currently close to because you fail to learn the lesson.
Instead of stooping to your level of ignorance/immaturity, I'm going to pray for you. My Heavenly Father has shown/taught me that you cannot fight hate with hate, nor can you fight ignorance with ignorance. I pray that you're released from that negative/unhealthy mindset that you've grown accustomed to, that you seek relationships that strengthen, edify and build-with truth and not lies. I pray that you overcome your needy spirit with a more humble one. I pray that you become a better steward over your household, building and not tearing it down. That you seek to add and not divide. I pray that you seek to be better and not bitter. That you know when the enemy is using you and when he/she is sitting on your couch/eating at your table. I pray that you cease believing that numbers don't lie. Doesn't matter the amount of years that you've known a person, what truly matters is how often they are there for you w/o conditions. I pray that you see how growth is truly measured by your ability to see your hand/involvement in relationships that have been ended,mainly this one. I'm on a mission and unfortunately when your on a mission, you have to be careful to only pack the necessities, ensuring that you're not weighed down.
I believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason, with the intent to fulfill a purpose!
I am a #Believer This is a #newadventureSAMEjourney #FHL #iHss #YPMM
I’ve been under the weather all week. I had to spend a day in the hospital,
and then visit my doctor for follow up visits. During this time, I’ve been
extremely quiet, only communicating with the few that know of my situation. My
mentor, who is AWESOME has been checking on me and giving me words of
encouragement (I just LOVE her) in the mist of her own daily life happenings,
she carved out time for me and I sincerely appreciate her for it. My sisters as
always have been checking in and remind me that although I am superwoman, even
the heroes need a break at some point. If you know me, you know it is
definitely hard for me to keep still and to not have my hand in something. My
mama (my first love) when I told her I had to go to the hospital( I didn’t tell
her right away, she worries way to much), she immediately told me. “See Vita,
you need to sit down somewhere” every time someone has something going on, you
don’t have to be involved. I know that is your spirit and personality, but God
needs you to be still. My mama was/is always right God definitely needed me
to be still in this moment. Last weekend, my brother bear said to me. Sissy,
why do you listen to respond? My little sissy said out of the blue on our
chat,”Ya’ll talk too much” Now, I’ll admit, I was a little in my feelings,
because I am the oldest sister and who is she to tell me that when she talks
just as much as I do. LOL but I digress. Everything that has been said, was/is
necessary for what I am about to reveal to you. See, I’ve been suffering
silently, not really expressing myself and letting people know just how I really
and truly feel. Listening to respond has been my thing for a while now, when it
should have been me listening to learn. Since I’ve been ill, God has ordered me
to be silent. On Sunday, I spent the day with some of my beautiful God
appointed family. We were blessed to find each other later in life (they aren’t
blood, but the bond we have is deeper. It was/is appointed by God) While
spending time with them, I realized that they give me a feeling that I’ve never
felt before, which is genuine pure love. While there, my Goddaughter laid in
silence, only crying when she wanted something to eat and when she needed to be
changed. Many of you have heard me express how much this little girl means to
me. She has already been anointed and is indeed a special little girl. She is
a week old and already has begun her work that she has been assigned to do. I
noticed how she would open her eyes and carefully studied (in silence) everyone
one that held her. When she felt that she needed a break from being held or if
you held her in a way where she was/is uncomfortable she would let out a little
cry to tell you know she felt. Once she did that you either had an option of
putting her down, or shifting her to make things comfortable for both you and
her. I of course chose to shift her to make her comfortable. In doing that,
God began to speak. HE said, “no one will know how you feel if you don’t do/say
something to tell them.” The next morning, I woke up in an unusual amount of
pain. I started to ignore how I felt and get myself ready to head to work when
God said. “No” not to day. Today, I need you to feel how you are feeling and
deal with it. I emailed my senior manager and informed him that I wouldn’t be
in. As the day progressed the pain grew more intense and I text my husband
letting him know I needed to go to the hospital. His response was. I’m on my
way. When he arrived to our home, he came in and helped me get dressed and took
me to the hospital. When we arrived, he took me in, parked and came in
afterward. When he came in, I heard him tell the nurse that he was looking for
his wife, Devita Parke. I heard him and said, I’m right here, do I look that
different? He said, yes babe you really do. While waiting, he had a look of
concern on his face( my husband is definitely a reserved/calm dude) while in the
back the doctors examined me and told me that I definitely needed to rest and to
really take it easy for the next few days. As I’m in the back I chatted with my
sisters who immediately went into big sister mode(I AM THE OLDEST) my medium
sister Thundercat) told me that I need to listen to the doctor and stop trying
to negotiate my diagnosis( she knows me so well). For the first time, I did
exactly what the doctor told me to do. I went home, and allowed my family to
care for me. I didn’t/haven’t lifted a finger all week. Once I got home, God
began talking. He said to me “ Devita, do you know this is happening to you.
If you’ve noticed, each time you do more than what I intend for you at the
moment, I have to take you down to lift you back up. I needed to expose you of
you, so that I can take you to the next level. I need you to be healed of it
all, but with that come exposure. The more we cover up how we feel, the more we
slow/stop the healing process. Take it all off and bare your soul to me. The
chains are being broken off of the family that I have stored up for you.
Blessings with your name on it are waiting to be released, but you must first be
exposed to greatness! Stop covering up my greatness with falsified
feelings/emotions. The lies that were told you about it not being OK to cry
when you’re hurt are being released from your memory. If you are unhappy my
child, it’s OK to say it. Happiness cannot find you if you refuse to expose
yourself. The reality that you created for yourself is a blanket that is used
to keep you comfortable. Your truth can only be revealed once you desire to
feel the uncomfortable. We must face whatever is causing the discomfort; then
and only then can we be delivered. The fear is causing us to feel comfortable
with your self-made reality. I did not give you the spirit of fear! HE spoke
about my recent betrayal from a family member, HE said, Why should you feel
betrayed when I (your heavenly father) was betrayed and spoke life into it??
Peter denied me, Judas betrayed me and yet I loved them even more. It has to
happen. Expect the bad as well as the good. It is all designed to bring you
closer to me.
Yesterday, at my doctor’s office I was a bit apprehensive about going(since
he has blessed in his practice he now has 3 locations and hired more doctors) I
am so used to seeing my favorite doctor only that I texted him asking if he
would be in his greenbelt location. LOL I know, too much when I arrived I
already had it in my head that I wouldn’t like the experience since he wouldn’t
be there. Then God spoke again saying, I lead you to Dr. S, who actually
trained Dr. M, surely you can BELIEVE that this the same for who you will be
seeing today. My spirit definitely received it and instantly relaxed. When she
came into the room, she had the most gently and soft spirit I had ever come into
contact with. I could definitely tell that she had learned from the best. I
text my doctor and told him that she was awesome and he was happy to hear
(although already knew). One thing she said to me and I knew it was God was.
Don’t suffer in silence, if you feel pain, if you have a question don’t be
afraid to tell me or ask a question. I know most will read this and say well
that is what she was supposed to say… yes, she was, however, I KNOW I was
supposed to be there to HEAR her say it!
Now let me tell you, while HE was speaking. I was definitely listening and
taking it all in. I know this post is long, but I believe that it may hold
someone’s salvation. It helped me a great deal.
Everything happens for a
reason with the INTENT to fulfill a purpose! I am definitely learning this
I AM a #believer THIS
IS a #newadventureSAMEjourney #faithhopelove
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