The Awakening!

I’ve been under the weather all week.  I had to spend a day in the hospital,
and then visit my doctor for follow up visits.  During this time, I’ve been
extremely quiet, only communicating with the few that know of my situation.  My
mentor, who is AWESOME has been checking on me and giving me words of
encouragement (I just LOVE her) in the mist of her own daily life happenings,
she carved out time for me and I sincerely appreciate her for it.  My sisters as
always have been checking in and remind me that although I am superwoman, even
the heroes need a break at some point.  If you know me, you know it is
definitely hard for me to keep still and to not have my hand in something.  My
mama (my first love) when I told her I had to go to the hospital( I didn’t tell
her right away, she worries way to much), she immediately told me. “See Vita,
you need to sit down somewhere” every time someone has something going on, you
don’t have to be involved. I know that is your spirit and personality, but God
needs you to be still.  My mama was/is always right   God definitely needed me
to be still in this moment.  Last weekend, my brother bear said to me.  Sissy,
why do you listen to respond?  My little sissy said out of the blue on our
chat,”Ya’ll talk too much” Now, I’ll admit, I was a little in my feelings,
because I am the oldest sister and who is she to tell me that when she talks
just as much as I do. LOL but I digress.  Everything that has been said, was/is
necessary for what I am about to reveal to you.  See, I’ve been suffering
silently, not really expressing myself and letting people know just how I really
and truly feel.  Listening to respond has been my thing for a while now, when it
should have been me listening to learn.  Since I’ve been ill, God has ordered me
to be silent.  On Sunday, I spent the day with some of my beautiful God
appointed family.  We were blessed to find each other later in life (they aren’t
blood, but the bond we have is deeper.  It was/is appointed by God) While
spending time with them, I realized that they give me a feeling that I’ve never
felt before, which is genuine pure love.  While there, my Goddaughter laid in
silence, only crying when she wanted something to eat and when she needed to be
changed. Many of you have heard me express how much this little girl means to
me.  She has already been anointed and is indeed a special little girl.  She is
a week old and already has begun her work that she has been assigned to do.  I
noticed how she would open her eyes and carefully studied (in silence) everyone
one that held her.  When she felt that she needed a break from being held or if
you held her in a way where she was/is uncomfortable she would let out a little
cry to tell you know she felt.   Once she did that you either had an option of
putting her down, or shifting her to make things comfortable for both you and
her.  I of course chose to shift her to make her comfortable.  In doing that,
God began to speak.  HE said, “no one will know how you feel if you don’t do/say
something to tell them.”   The next morning, I woke up in an unusual amount of
pain.  I started to ignore how I felt and get myself ready to head to work when
God said. “No” not to day.  Today, I need you to feel how you are feeling and
deal with it.  I emailed my senior manager and informed him that I wouldn’t be
in.  As the day progressed the pain grew more intense and I text my husband
letting him know I needed to go to the hospital.  His response was.  I’m on my
way.  When he arrived to our home, he came in and helped me get dressed and took
me to the hospital.  When we arrived, he took me in, parked and came in
afterward.  When he came in, I heard him tell the nurse that he was looking for
his wife, Devita Parke.  I heard him and said, I’m right here, do I look that
different?  He said, yes babe you really do.  While waiting, he had a look of
concern on his face( my husband is definitely a reserved/calm dude) while in the
back the doctors examined me and told me that I definitely needed to rest and to
really take it easy for the next few days.  As I’m in the back I chatted with my
sisters who immediately went into big sister mode(I AM THE OLDEST) my medium
sister Thundercat) told me that I need to listen to the doctor and stop trying
to negotiate my diagnosis( she knows me so well).  For the first time, I did
exactly what the doctor told me to do.  I went home, and allowed my family to
care for me. I didn’t/haven’t lifted a finger all week.  Once I got home, God
began talking.  He said to me “ Devita, do you know this is happening to you. 
If you’ve noticed, each time you do more than what I intend for you at the
moment, I have to take you down to lift you back up.  I needed to expose you of
you, so that I can take you to the next level.  I need you to be healed of it
all, but with that come exposure.  The more we cover up how we feel, the more we
slow/stop the healing process.  Take it all off and bare your soul to me.  The
chains are being broken off of the family that I have stored up for you. 
Blessings with your name on it are waiting to be released, but you must first be
exposed to greatness!  Stop covering up my greatness with falsified
feelings/emotions.  The lies that were told you about it not being OK to cry
when you’re hurt are being released from your memory. If you are unhappy my
child, it’s OK to say it.  Happiness cannot find you if you refuse to expose
yourself.  The reality that you created for yourself is a blanket that is used
to keep you comfortable.  Your truth can only be revealed once you desire to
feel the uncomfortable.  We must face whatever is causing the discomfort; then
and only then can we be delivered.  The fear is causing us to feel comfortable
with your self-made reality.   I did not give you the spirit of fear!  HE spoke
about my recent betrayal from a family member, HE said, Why should you feel
betrayed when I (your heavenly father) was betrayed and spoke life into it?? 
Peter denied me, Judas betrayed me and yet I loved them even more.  It has to
happen.  Expect the bad as well as the good. It is all designed to bring you
closer to me. 


  Yesterday, at my doctor’s office I was a bit apprehensive about going(since
he has blessed in his practice he now has 3 locations and hired more doctors) I
am so used to seeing my favorite doctor only that I texted him asking if he
would be in his greenbelt location. LOL I know, too much   when I arrived I
already had it in my head that I wouldn’t like the experience since he wouldn’t
be there.  Then God spoke again saying, I lead you to Dr. S, who actually
trained  Dr. M, surely you can BELIEVE that this the same for who you will be
seeing today.  My spirit definitely received it and instantly relaxed.  When she
came into the room, she had the most gently and soft spirit I had ever come into
contact with.  I could definitely tell that she had learned from the best.    I
text my doctor and told him that she was awesome and he was happy to hear
(although already knew).  One thing she said to me and I knew it was God was. 
Don’t suffer in silence, if you feel pain, if you have a question don’t be
afraid to tell me or ask a question.    I know most will read this and say well
that is what she was supposed to say… yes, she was, however, I KNOW I was
supposed to be there to HEAR her say it! 


  Now let me tell you, while HE was speaking. I was definitely listening and
taking it all in.  I know this post is long, but I believe that it may hold
someone’s salvation.  It helped me a great deal. 
Everything happens for a
reason with the INTENT to fulfill a purpose! I am definitely learning this
daily. 
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