I’ve been under the weather all week. I had to spend a day in the hospital,
and then visit my doctor for follow up visits. During this time, I’ve been extremely quiet, only communicating with the few that know of my situation. My mentor, who is AWESOME has been checking on me and giving me words of encouragement (I just LOVE her) in the mist of her own daily life happenings, she carved out time for me and I sincerely appreciate her for it. My sisters as always have been checking in and remind me that although I am superwoman, even the heroes need a break at some point. If you know me, you know it is definitely hard for me to keep still and to not have my hand in something. My mama (my first love) when I told her I had to go to the hospital( I didn’t tell her right away, she worries way to much), she immediately told me. “See Vita, you need to sit down somewhere” every time someone has something going on, you don’t have to be involved. I know that is your spirit and personality, but God needs you to be still. My mama was/is always right God definitely needed me to be still in this moment. Last weekend, my brother bear said to me. Sissy, why do you listen to respond? My little sissy said out of the blue on our chat,”Ya’ll talk too much” Now, I’ll admit, I was a little in my feelings, because I am the oldest sister and who is she to tell me that when she talks just as much as I do. LOL but I digress. Everything that has been said, was/is necessary for what I am about to reveal to you. See, I’ve been suffering silently, not really expressing myself and letting people know just how I really and truly feel. Listening to respond has been my thing for a while now, when it should have been me listening to learn. Since I’ve been ill, God has ordered me to be silent. On Sunday, I spent the day with some of my beautiful God appointed family. We were blessed to find each other later in life (they aren’t blood, but the bond we have is deeper. It was/is appointed by God) While spending time with them, I realized that they give me a feeling that I’ve never felt before, which is genuine pure love. While there, my Goddaughter laid in silence, only crying when she wanted something to eat and when she needed to be changed. Many of you have heard me express how much this little girl means to me. She has already been anointed and is indeed a special little girl. She is a week old and already has begun her work that she has been assigned to do. I noticed how she would open her eyes and carefully studied (in silence) everyone one that held her. When she felt that she needed a break from being held or if you held her in a way where she was/is uncomfortable she would let out a little cry to tell you know she felt. Once she did that you either had an option of putting her down, or shifting her to make things comfortable for both you and her. I of course chose to shift her to make her comfortable. In doing that, God began to speak. HE said, “no one will know how you feel if you don’t do/say something to tell them.” The next morning, I woke up in an unusual amount of pain. I started to ignore how I felt and get myself ready to head to work when God said. “No” not to day. Today, I need you to feel how you are feeling and deal with it. I emailed my senior manager and informed him that I wouldn’t be in. As the day progressed the pain grew more intense and I text my husband letting him know I needed to go to the hospital. His response was. I’m on my way. When he arrived to our home, he came in and helped me get dressed and took me to the hospital. When we arrived, he took me in, parked and came in afterward. When he came in, I heard him tell the nurse that he was looking for his wife, Devita Parke. I heard him and said, I’m right here, do I look that different? He said, yes babe you really do. While waiting, he had a look of concern on his face( my husband is definitely a reserved/calm dude) while in the back the doctors examined me and told me that I definitely needed to rest and to really take it easy for the next few days. As I’m in the back I chatted with my sisters who immediately went into big sister mode(I AM THE OLDEST) my medium sister Thundercat) told me that I need to listen to the doctor and stop trying to negotiate my diagnosis( she knows me so well). For the first time, I did exactly what the doctor told me to do. I went home, and allowed my family to care for me. I didn’t/haven’t lifted a finger all week. Once I got home, God began talking. He said to me “ Devita, do you know this is happening to you. If you’ve noticed, each time you do more than what I intend for you at the moment, I have to take you down to lift you back up. I needed to expose you of you, so that I can take you to the next level. I need you to be healed of it all, but with that come exposure. The more we cover up how we feel, the more we slow/stop the healing process. Take it all off and bare your soul to me. The chains are being broken off of the family that I have stored up for you. Blessings with your name on it are waiting to be released, but you must first be exposed to greatness! Stop covering up my greatness with falsified feelings/emotions. The lies that were told you about it not being OK to cry when you’re hurt are being released from your memory. If you are unhappy my child, it’s OK to say it. Happiness cannot find you if you refuse to expose yourself. The reality that you created for yourself is a blanket that is used to keep you comfortable. Your truth can only be revealed once you desire to feel the uncomfortable. We must face whatever is causing the discomfort; then and only then can we be delivered. The fear is causing us to feel comfortable with your self-made reality. I did not give you the spirit of fear! HE spoke about my recent betrayal from a family member, HE said, Why should you feel betrayed when I (your heavenly father) was betrayed and spoke life into it?? Peter denied me, Judas betrayed me and yet I loved them even more. It has to happen. Expect the bad as well as the good. It is all designed to bring you closer to me. Yesterday, at my doctor’s office I was a bit apprehensive about going(since he has blessed in his practice he now has 3 locations and hired more doctors) I am so used to seeing my favorite doctor only that I texted him asking if he would be in his greenbelt location. LOL I know, too much when I arrived I already had it in my head that I wouldn’t like the experience since he wouldn’t be there. Then God spoke again saying, I lead you to Dr. S, who actually trained Dr. M, surely you can BELIEVE that this the same for who you will be seeing today. My spirit definitely received it and instantly relaxed. When she came into the room, she had the most gently and soft spirit I had ever come into contact with. I could definitely tell that she had learned from the best. I text my doctor and told him that she was awesome and he was happy to hear (although already knew). One thing she said to me and I knew it was God was. Don’t suffer in silence, if you feel pain, if you have a question don’t be afraid to tell me or ask a question. I know most will read this and say well that is what she was supposed to say… yes, she was, however, I KNOW I was supposed to be there to HEAR her say it! Now let me tell you, while HE was speaking. I was definitely listening and taking it all in. I know this post is long, but I believe that it may hold someone’s salvation. It helped me a great deal. Everything happens for a reason with the INTENT to fulfill a purpose! I am definitely learning this daily. I AM a #believer THIS IS a #newadventureSAMEjourney #faithhopelove
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